Yes, back in the saddle, though I have to say that some time out of the saddle was something that felt pretty necessary, all told. And now that I’m once more sitting in this particular saddle, I’m struck by how often it lurches, and how uncomfortable it can be at times.
Some people do nothing more than the forty-hour work week, looking for things to occupy their time or allow them to relax during the portion of day that remains. Me, at times it seems like I go to work, and then transition to another completely different sort of work, throwing in a bit of extra work here and there whenever a work-sized splinter of time reveals itself as being ‘available’.
The problem with that scenario is simply this – you work yourself pretty hard.
Deadlines are deadlines, true, and you don’t really want to miss one of those, especially if it’s not just a personal deadline you’ve set yourself. Real-world deadlines for getting stuff done are a source of great anxiety at times, and when you’ve surrounded yourself with work, work, work … sometimes you start to feel trapped. Worse, when you’re the only one who can do the work, sometimes you start to feel like you’re on your own.
These are the moments when it’s important to take a walk, wander around a bit, and just appreciate the weird and jaw-droppingly complex little things around you. I could walk down my street thinking about how stressed out I am and end up barely paying any attention to the stuff around me. Take a guy from Guatemala or Nepal and drop him in the same neighborhood, and they’re looking around with wide eyes, taking in all of the little ways that this place is different from where they are. That’s because I’m so used to the stuff I see around me, at times I don’t even realize it’s there, or how great it is.
That’s why the phrase ‘change is as good as a vacation’ exists. If you spend some time looking at stuff you never really get to see, and that is completely different from the stuff you’re looking at on a regular basis, by the time you come back to where you were you’re able to see things a little clearer … see them for what they are. People too – I’m surrounded by wonderful, supportive people, and I can’t imagine my life without any of them. Their encouragement is one of the reasons I work myself as hard as I do sometimes.
For my part, I’m back, and feeling good about the stuff I’ve got ahead of me all of a sudden. Stress is useless for anything but motivating yourself, and honestly, there’s better ways of doing that. I’m relaxed, and I’m going to stay relaxed for the next little while, taking moments every now and again to just stop and consider how amazing my whole situation is.
Sometimes, when you’re thinking about your problems, all it takes is imagining someone from a distant, faraway land looking you up and down, snorting to themselves and saying to you, “Hey, I *wish* I had your problems …”
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